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Date Posted: 25 June, 2008
I just observed that I was only trying to speak my reflections, but I never told my real feelings/emotions directly in my blog. Anyway, I just thought that maybe the reason I write in this way is so that I won't be able to attack specific people in my entries. Now, I want to tell you a story that just happened to me this day. It's a bit boring, but just bare with me.
Everyday, I always try to wake up earlier than before. I always had less than 7 hours of sleep from Monday until Friday. Going to my school takes up a lot of time, and so, today I woke up 5:45am. Maybe some people are used to it, but for me, I don't. So yeah, I woke up that time and until now, I feel sleepy. So, when I came to school, I attended classes (obviously~). My morning and afternoon classes end at 1:25 pm every MWF. I usually go home and just come back to school at 6:30pm for my Math class that will start at 6:55pm. So, today I didn't go home because I needed to take up an exam at 3:40pm. I have stumbled at the internet cafe for some time until the time for the exam. It took me an hour to answer the test, but anyway, I ate food with my friends after.
6:00pm came, then my friend needs to attend to an "Open-Cell" meeting, and so I really do not want to be alone in school that's why I went with her. It was actually fun and it was my first time to be there. They were so friendly and it was so nice of them for letting me join them. So there, 6:55pm came and I went on with my Math class.
Finally I am already getting ready to get home. So while I was in the car, there was a quarrel between me and another person. I was disrespected, and so I fought back. You see, I have the right to talk back because first of all the person is ignorant, second he doesn't know justice, and lastly, I did not do anything offending. Because I can no longer take control of the situation and also the person was so ignorant (the person doesn't listen), I opened the door of the car and walked out without saying anything more. I do not like to talk to people who are not civilized and who is ignorant of the law. I also hate people who pretend that they know, but actually what they only do is to brag.
When I walked out, I was able to ride in a taxi immediately. When I was already inside the taxi, I thought for awhile. Why is it always difficult for me to get the respect I want from that person. Why am I the only one who only gets negative attitude from that person. Don't I deserve 'respect'?
I was quiet and the radio was playing a very happy song, yet it made me feel that there was nothing for me to celebrate about. I got my handkerchief and put it on my eyes. Then tears came out on my eyes. I cried and I was hurt. That time, I felt alone for no one protected and defended me. It was all me AGAIN and until NOW it was only ME.
